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Blargh. Saw American Wedding, twas very good. =oD Aly was gorgeous, no surprise there. Seann looked ok as well, and January Jones...always nice. Bought AP 1 & 2 with the little bonus DVD "Beneath the Crust." Basically just some missing plot lines, some of em were really good...Went out to eat, blech. I hate food. Didn't do stuff, though I may be heading up to Lukas's tonight, if he ever answers his phone...damn gay boys >=o( You'd think talking on the phone would be his specialty, but noooo...he's probably passed out or something. Ah well, maybe tomorrow.

I numbed myself on Friday, August 1, 2003 at 09:14 p.m.

{[He Used To Do Surgery]}
I've been hanging out with Michelle again...I haven't really spent time with her in a year or so. She's hanging out with a bunch of new people...They're ok I guess. Much different from the group we used to have, but strangley similar as well I suppose. We've been doing shit again, and I really want to stop it. I can't bring myself to do so, though. I know it's bad for me, and I know what it's done to two of my friends, but...I'm feeling very numb recently, and that's never good in my world. Currently Michelle's asleep at my feet after a rather calm night. I'm only staying here for a bit, I'm going back early in the morning, so I really should get some sleep. I'm not gonna take stuff back with me...I got over my problem last year (for the most part, minus a few relapses) so I'm going to try to get over this one as well. =o|

I numbed myself on Friday, August 1, 2003 at 01:59 a.m.

{[I Will Not Sniff Your Finger!]}
So...hmm. I have to read an entire book tomorrow. "The Return of the Native." I'm on about page six. I have to be done with it by tomorrow, so I'll just wake up early I guess. I'm currently watching American Pie hosted by Alyson Hannigan and that other guy (he's not really important, now is he?) There are a lot of Aly promo stuffs going on because of American Wedding...I'm trying to tape them, but it's mucho difficult to get them all. Oh well. I don't really have much to say, I just wanted to type. Fanfic's taking a while to update so I'm running out of things to do. I suppose this would be a good time to read, but nay. I'm going to see AW on Friday if anyone wants to come...there's three of us going so far, I don't really want anyone else to come, but if you really want to I suppose we can let you in...

I numbed myself on Wednesday, July 30, 2003 at 10:07 p.m.

I Woke Up In A Strange Place
Woo I haven't been here in ages...course, I suppose there's good reason for that. So what's new in my life? Well...absolutely nothing. It has now been officially over three years. I think I'm finally good. I've just...there have been so many changes in my life since then, and I think I've come to terms with it. I don't know. I lit a candle for him in Europe...in a cathedral in Monaco. I think he understands. I've been bitchier than normal since I got back from Europe as well...maybe that stems from my newfound intense hatred of people. Eh, who knows. Trying to do summer reading...but I'm lazy. Actually, I just don't care. I don't care about a lot anymore. Been eating a lot, yet it's weird that according to the scale I've not gained weight...hmm. Saw Pirates of the Caribbean and League of Extraordinary Gentlemen...both good. I can't really compare which one is better though because they're too different. I'm waiting for AP3...just a week or so left!!! *Excited* I'm not looking forward to school next year. I'm taking a full schedule, semi-hard classes...and considering my only friend is 700 miles away fucking a man...er...ok, scratch that...but yeah, I'll be lonely. *Sigh* I'm so bored recently.

I numbed myself on Tuesday, July 22, 2003 at 05:50 p.m.

{[Take All That I Can Get]}
Lukas--I love you.

I numbed myself on Saturday, January 11, 2003 at 06:51 p.m.